I am weary with my groaning. Every night I flood my bed. I drench my couch with my tears. My eye wastes away because of grief. It grows old because of all my adversaries.
The pillow knows. It absorbed the sound you didn't let anyone else hear. It holds the shape of a face that turned away from the ceiling because staring at the ceiling felt like staring at God and getting nothing back. And morning comes anyway — merciless in its brightness — asking you to get up and be a person again when every cell in your body is voting for horizontal. But David flooded his bed. A king flooded his bed. Which means the tears aren't a sign that you've failed. They're a sign that you're alive. And alive — even when alive hurts — is sacred. You are not drowning. You are grieving. And grieving is just love with nowhere left to go.
David isn't performing grief here. He's confessing it. "Every night" — this isn't a one-time cry. This is chronic. Nightly. The kind of sadness that shows up on schedule like a second job. And his eyes are wasting — meaning the grief is physically changing him. He can see it in the mirror. The weight loss. The dark circles. The way his face has aged in weeks instead of years.
If you've been there — if the grief is so heavy it's rearranging your body — then you know something the rest of the world doesn't: sadness is physical. It lives in your shoulders. In your jaw. In the back of your skull where the headache never fully leaves. It's not an emotion. It's an occupation. It moves in and takes over the house.
But David writes this Psalm — six verses of absolute devastation — and then he turns. "Depart from me, all you workers of iniquity, for the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping." Heard. Not stopped. Not fixed. Heard. And sometimes that's the only thing that keeps grief from becoming despair: the knowledge that the weeping isn't falling on deaf ears. Someone is listening to the sound your pillow absorbed. And that someone doesn't flinch.
Psalm 6:6-7
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